To The Girl Dating My Ex

Dear (Insert name here),

Hi, I'm Josh's most recent ex. I'm sure you have heard about me. I'm sure your probably hate me and think I'm the lowest form of scum based off what he has told you about me. But im gonna be honest. I'm not the things he makes me out to be. I'm not a heartless bitch who just loved hurting him. I'm not a bitch who used him and then threw him away like trash. I loved him. I hated hurting him like I did but I wasn't happy anymore. He just wasn't the one for me anymore. See I have had depression since I was 10 and it's not as sever as it once was but I hate being unhappy because of that l. I have spent far too many days laying in bed feeling like I was a doormat for people to walk all over . I have spent far too many nights crying myself to sleep because no one gave a damn about me or how I feel. I've also been used by people I was dating. I've had my heart broken many time. It wasn't fair to Josh that I wasn't in love with him anymore. I loved him. He seemed like a really sweet guy and I cared deeply for him but no matter how much I didn't wanna see him hurt I wasn't gonna lie to him. I wasn't gonna make myself be miserable just to keep him happy. He deserved to be happy but so did I. I didn't wanna hurt him but there is no good or easy way to leave someone you have been with for 4 years.

 Now let's move on from that. Josh is a complicated person. He can't read good nor can he spell. I offered to help him but he has given up on ever being able to do it. There are some things you should know/ that I want to ask of you. 1.He has a rough past. His dad left when he was 4. Don't ask him about his dad. He will probably say he doesn't wanna talk about it. It's a very touchy thing for him. He will tell you about him when he is ready. There is a lot of stuff in his past he will tell you when he trusts you enough. I know all of it but it's not my place to tell you. 2. Josh has a serious temper. I pray you aren't ever on the receiving end of one of his yelling fits. I knew him for 4 years and it was still scary. 3.  Be nice to his mama. Evelyn is the sweetest lady you will ever meet. I still adore that woman. I miss her a lot. I know I hurt her when I left so what I am about to say may seem stupid or hypocritical but don't hurt her. You have never felt heartbreak until you see her cry because of you. I would know. 3. I haven't spoken or seen Josh in like 4 months so idk what dogs are there now but Im assuming there is: Lady, Shadow, Daphne, Sophie, Rocky, Anna, Benjamin, Gizmo(if he hasn't passed away) and probably some others. Be nice to them. Those dogs will love you. Me and Josh rescued Anna. Gizmo is old as hell. Do not try to pick him up he will bite you. Lady and Anna will wanna sleep in the bed with you. Especially Lady. She will let you get comfortable and then lay against your legs. Love her. Lay Lay as we always called her is a sweetheart. Anna is too. They all love attention. Shadow can be a dick. He also really loved attention and sitting in your lap. It will get annoying. Sophie is a sweetheart. I always called her Snagle tooth cuz of how her jaw is. Those dogs were my world for 4 years. I love and adore those dogs. I miss them and Josh's mom the most. 5. You will have to do every application for a job for him and his brother. The big words confuse him. 6. Chris isn't all there mentally. He is forever 7 years old mentally. Try to remember that if he ever starts to bug you. I hope you get along with Daniel better than I did.

Lets be serious here. I don't hate you. I'm not jealous of you. I have an amazing boyfriend who treats me amazing and I am very happy. I don't want Josh back. However I still do care about him. I'm not in love with him. But I do love him as a friend. I can't just cut that off. He was in my life for 4 years. I know y'all are engaged now. Him and I were once engaged. I hope it works out for y'all. I hope for your sake Josh learned and grew up a bit after I left. Honestly, if he is the same as when I was with him, he isn't going anywhere in life. He is a 28 year old child. He is never gonna drive. He will never get his permit. He will never have a good paying job. He is gonna fail. He has no drive to do anything. He is all his mom had so he isn't ever gonna leave her. He will never be able to save up money cuz everyone needs money all the time. I hope he has changed but he probably hasn't.


Take care of him and don't break his heart. He can't take another person leaving him. You're stuck with him. For the rest of your life now. I hope you're ok with that. Oh one more thing and this is gonna get personal but it needs to be said. Have sex with him regularly. If he goes too long without getting laid he will cheat on you through messages on Facebook to people. He did it to me twice. So I hope you can have sex regularly and don't get cheated on. I have PTSD so I couldn't. I also hope you don't have anything mentally wrong like depression or ptsd cuz he hates that because he doesn't understand it. Good luck explaining it to him. I tried for 4 years and never got anywhere.


Sincerely,

K.

My Life Dating a Felon

Hey guys what is up,

This post is gonna be about how my life has changed and stuff since I started dating a convicted felon. Yes, you read that right, I am dating a felon. The man I am dating has done 4 years in prison for aggravated assault and possession. When he was about 16ish, he stabbed a guy in self defense but he lives in Georgia. And in the good ole state of Georgia, they don't always go by evidence they just decide how they want to be guilty and not. So even though it was self defense, he did 4 years. I knew Johnny, my boyfriend, for a few years before he went to prison. We were best friends. He is one of the sweetest and most loving people I have ever met in my life. I have told him multiple times both before and after he went to prison that I just can't picture him doing what he did. He is just such a big sweetheart. Johnny and I stayed in contact the whole 4 years he was in prison. We would write letters back and forth. We both even still have the letters. I had always had a major crush on him plus he was my best friend so even prison didn't keep us from talking as much as possible. I tell people now that I have always loved Johnny. Since the first time I met him in person (we met through an online site for friends) I have loved him. But I always had a boyfriend and I always thought my feeling for him were just a crush. Where you find them attractive but the feelings are t string enough for a relationship. Dating him did cross my mind a few times but he was about to go to prison/ was in prison and I didn't know if our relationship would survive that.

Then on June 12th, he was released. I was one of the first people who knew he was out. He texted me 2 hours after being released. A couple weeks later I got to see him again for the first time in 4.5 years. I would be lying if I said I had ever been more excited in my life. I couldn't stop smiling the whole time. Then he had some issues with the person he was living with so he moved in with his dad. Him and his dad didn't have the best relationship before he went to prison. They fought a lot so we both were kinda worried about him moving over there. But so far everything has been fine. They have gotten in a few arguments but I was there so I calmed Johnny down so he wouldn't get kicked out. If he ends up with no place to go, he goes back to prison. Life is more complicated now. Since he has a felony charge now, he can't just go anywhere and get a job. Some places won't hire felons. Currently he works at Subway being the sexiest sandwich maker ever lol. When he was going through his whole housing issue, I was gonna let him move in with me. But I live in South Carolina and his PO said unless it was family he couldn't move outta state so now we are kinda hoping maybe they will be more lieanient once he is just on probation. If not then, I am moving to GA to live with him. Another thing some people never think about is apartments. Some places won't allow you to live there if you are a felon. Johnny has been out for a little over 5 months now. I couldn't be more proud of him. In those 5 months he has busted his ass to find a job, is trying to find a way to get him a car, he is figuring it all out. I am so proud of him. Yes, being in a relationship with someone who was once in prison has it downfalls but I knew that when we got together. I didn't think it would be a cake walk. I knew he was gonna have issues finding a good job. But he is well worth it to me. I have never been more happy in my life. I know that some people may look at me like a fool for dating someone who has done time for  a violent crime. I know that some of my family may look at him badly but they dont know him. People who find out he did time and then just based on that think he is a bad person are just too judgemental. I have known him for 7 years. He is literally the biggest sweetheart I have ever met. And I'm not just saying that because he is my boyfriend. I couldnt ask for a better man.

Well thats it. I could ramble on about my Batman for hours but ill just leave it here.