Hey guys, what is up.
This is gonna be a personal update. These past few months,
since I made this blog, my mental health has been shit. I don’t really know
why. Like it has just kinda tanked. I think it’s the house I live in. See we
moved here in December and it has been hell ever since. *
Hey guys what is up,
So the first part of this was from the beginning of June. My mental health was absolute shit then. I was constantly depressed and most days didn't even wanna get out of bed. I never wanted to leave the house to go do anything. Now I have had depression since I was 10 years old (I'm now 21) but when i was about 15ish it wasn't as sever as it was. Then in Aug of 2014 my grandmother, who i loved dearly and who made me the person i am now, passed away. Obviously this took a toll on me. I was more depressed than i had been in years. But then after about 3 years since he had passed i had kinda gotten better again. Then we moved into her house as our new home. And it tanked again. I personally kinda think it was all just too much for a while. Now from June of 2013 - June of 2017 I was dating someone. He was there through it all, my grandmother dying, my finally dealing with being raped after repressing it for 2 years, etc. I would be lying if i said i didn't love that man. He was my rock through some of the hardest years of my life.
However, I had always kinda been in love with someone else. The other guy was someone i had met back in 2010 and we have been best friends ever since. He struggles with depression, anxiety and self harm like i did back then. He got me. He understood me. Talking to him about how I was truly feeling was always so easy to do because i knew he had been there. Then in 2013 he went to prison. He had stabbed someone in self defense and the cops couldn't prove it was self defense so they sent him to prison. On June 12th of this year he was released from prison. And we started talking again. And i was happier than i had been in months. I felt like my old self again. Until i went to see the guy i was dating and then i was depressed again. So i decided to take a leap of faith. I dumped the guy i had been dating for the past 4 years so i could date the guy who had got out of prison. Now here it is in almost Oct 2017 and i can honestly say I am happy. I have smiled and laughed more in these past few months than i have in a while. I am so in love with this man. I have loved him for 7 years now and time has only strengthened it. Sure dating someone who is on parole and who lives a state away and isn't allowed to leave the state sucks. It really sucks. But I still have the man who makes me happy. I knew dating him wasn't gonna be easy. Nothing in my life that i love ever is but he is so worth it.
Well there you go my mental health update. I may try to do these once a month or once ever two months. I don't know for sure yet.
Hey guys what is up,
So the first part of this was from the beginning of June. My mental health was absolute shit then. I was constantly depressed and most days didn't even wanna get out of bed. I never wanted to leave the house to go do anything. Now I have had depression since I was 10 years old (I'm now 21) but when i was about 15ish it wasn't as sever as it was. Then in Aug of 2014 my grandmother, who i loved dearly and who made me the person i am now, passed away. Obviously this took a toll on me. I was more depressed than i had been in years. But then after about 3 years since he had passed i had kinda gotten better again. Then we moved into her house as our new home. And it tanked again. I personally kinda think it was all just too much for a while. Now from June of 2013 - June of 2017 I was dating someone. He was there through it all, my grandmother dying, my finally dealing with being raped after repressing it for 2 years, etc. I would be lying if i said i didn't love that man. He was my rock through some of the hardest years of my life.
However, I had always kinda been in love with someone else. The other guy was someone i had met back in 2010 and we have been best friends ever since. He struggles with depression, anxiety and self harm like i did back then. He got me. He understood me. Talking to him about how I was truly feeling was always so easy to do because i knew he had been there. Then in 2013 he went to prison. He had stabbed someone in self defense and the cops couldn't prove it was self defense so they sent him to prison. On June 12th of this year he was released from prison. And we started talking again. And i was happier than i had been in months. I felt like my old self again. Until i went to see the guy i was dating and then i was depressed again. So i decided to take a leap of faith. I dumped the guy i had been dating for the past 4 years so i could date the guy who had got out of prison. Now here it is in almost Oct 2017 and i can honestly say I am happy. I have smiled and laughed more in these past few months than i have in a while. I am so in love with this man. I have loved him for 7 years now and time has only strengthened it. Sure dating someone who is on parole and who lives a state away and isn't allowed to leave the state sucks. It really sucks. But I still have the man who makes me happy. I knew dating him wasn't gonna be easy. Nothing in my life that i love ever is but he is so worth it.
Well there you go my mental health update. I may try to do these once a month or once ever two months. I don't know for sure yet.
